Wednesday, June 02, 2010

tears in my eyes...

this morning was the 1st time i teman my dad for his check-up. most of the time its either my mom or my youngest sister who would brought him to the hospital but since neither of them was available, so i have to take up the responsibility. i have to start learning all these before my sister got married or else i won't know what to ask and what to look.


"it's getting worse en sidek and this is really bad"
"i think this is the best and last option that we have"
"you might have 3-5months to the max before we start the process"
"remember, take care of your father ya."

i cried when the doctor said those things to me and my dad but thanks to my glasses that managed to cover it up. i almost fainted when looking at the results of his blood test, urine test and all the tests. it was nightmare.


i have no mood to work or to do anything currently sebab dalam kepala i macam radio rosak, i ingat every word yg the doctors cakap and it worries me. really!

all i can do now is berdoa and hope there'll be a miracle. InsyaAllah.

5 comments:

Lady of Leisure said...

dear i doakan semoga Allah berikan kesihatan yg baik pada yr dad..

CiKaYu said...

diana, sabar yea. dugaan dari Allah. masa yg ada kite luangkan bersama dia. i doakan kesihatan ayah u akan baik. be strong k.

Ermayum said...

diana dear u always have kind words to say to me when I feel down and i hope i can do the same for you.

be strong k - jaga la ayah seabis baik sementara ada -

kita kena redha ketentuan hidup - our parents will get old, get sick and leave us one day - there is nothing that we can do - but we can pray that whatever left of their age - they will be healty, diringankan penderitaan, rasa sakit an when their time arrive to go dalam iman dalam keadaan tidak menyeksakan.

Ya Allah , kasihanila kedua orangtua kami seperti mana mereka mengasihani kami sewaktu kami kecil, permudahkan la hari tua mereka, ringankan la penyakit dan derita mereka and akhirkan la mereka dgn pengakhiran yang baik, dalam iman dan dalam rahmah mu - amin aminnnn

do the best that you can do dear and i know you will - other than that there is nothing that we can do

*hug* be strong be strong

N A N I E said...

Yana..InsyaAllah berdoa bebanyak..be strong Yana..semoga ur dad cepat sembuh amin..

diana sidek said...

LoL:thanks so much lady, we'll wait for d 2nd opinion.hope everything will be ok.

Cikayu:yup, i know this is all dugaan and we have to be strng but bila my dad said those things, i mcm sedih sgt.thanks ye cik ayu!

Ermayum:erma, i cried when i read ur words. it's exactly what i needed at this time.i know, we hv to accept the fact he's getting old and should be prepared his penyakit getting worse but when the doc said that, mmg i rasa nak pengsan je.he's done so much for me and i hope i could do the same.thanks again erma, u are such a kind friend dear.

Nanie:thanks darling. i appreciate it a lot.