definitely not something i am proud of. until today i feel really guilty of what happened last saturday. i don't know what was on my mind at that time or dimanakah mataku when it happened. i was supposed pegang my dad masa berjaan2 tu as his eyesight was blur and i did, i think. then entah macammana, masa nak turun tangga tu my dad jatuh! i repeat my dad jatuh! under my care. can u imagine how i felt? i always kutuk org yg biar je parents diorg yg tua jalan sorg2 and tak dipegang but now it happened to me and worse, my dad jatuh. it was about 5-6 steps jugaklah. after my dad jatuh tu, i mcm tergamam kejap and just stood there doing nothing. i was really bad, really bad, evil daughter! my youngest sister was really angry at me and i didnt argue as it was my fault, i know. then now my dad punya pinggang sakit sikit, then kaki dia pon mcm tu, lagilah bertambah2 rasa guilty. dah banyak kali i kata "sorry ayah" but i know its not enough and there's no way i can turn back the time.
moral of the story; i'll be extra careful next time and pay attention to him whenever i'm with him.
4 comments:
Jangan blame diri u Yana..no!
kalau diberi pilihan..u nak ke tengok ayah u jatuh? Tak Kan???
so maksudnya you tak sengaja..biasa la kekadang kita terleka..hope everything akan pulih seperti biasa..:)
i agree dengan nanie... kita tak nak benda cam ni jadi tapi kalau tak sengaja apa nak buat kan.. hope yr dad punya kesihatan akan bertambah baik
Nanie and LoL: thanks sgt and mmg betol i pon x nak jd mcm tu tp bila dah jd tu, i rasa mcm berdosa sgt...probably it takes time kot nak buang that guilty feelings...
dah nak jadi dont feel so guilty - be careful next time :)
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